A letter to my current self.
This angst you are feeling is OK. It is OK to feel this way. This last week has been an emotional roller coaster. You have felt joy, pride, sadness, frustration, excitement, and fear. These feelings have thrown you around. There is no logical reason for these emotions. Everything is great. You are doing fine. It would be so easy to run from these feelings. To hit pause for a while. It is fine to pause while you gather the strength to take the next step. It is fine to pause and take a breathe. But honestly, I think you need to lean into these feelings. To embrace them rather than trying to escape them. You will grow. You don’t know what is around the corner. This angst that you are feeling is because you are scared of what there is to come. There could be a wall that you are about to smash into. There could be another mountain that you need to climb. There could be a new path to travel. Or there could be the best view, one that you have been climbing to see. You could be ready to fly. Your creative heart will thank you for it. It is only photography after all. No lives will be hurt or drama caused. If you fail, you know how to pick yourself up. You have done it before.
So pause if you feel the need to. But, please don’t wait too long. I so want to know what is around the corner.
About the photographer:
My name is Cindy Cavanagh, and I live in Sydney, Australia. I am a Lifestyle photographer of home and heart. I love to create and always have. I’m Co-Editor of the Long Way Home Magazine, contributor to Journey to Artist and 30 minutes in the life. I am a wife and a Mum to 5 gorgeous and crazy children. Ironically, I love the quiet.